I gave my whole heart to this project that I was invited to… I thought about it in the morning, I sent text messages at noon and I prayed in the evening. I was going to – against all odds – be. faithful. has. This. assignment.
Yet something was wrong. Very wrong. Despite all my efforts to follow through, I could no longer lie to myself. Pressing questions remain, such as: Why are they engaging so little and putting off meetings? Where is their enthusiasm and feedback? Why do I feel like a door is being closed in my face when I have something to say? Why do I continue (and seemingly stupidly) to insist while they back away?
In love, I continued to insist (because I thought that was what God wanted): Be faithful, Kelly, the Bible says to be faithful. So I pushed harder.
Yet there comes a day when the message of rejection finally reaches a soul – and is clearly stated: it is God’s reorientation.
The grace is no longer there. You are throwing pearls to pigs. The Pharisees closed their hearts. Your prayers hit a brick wall. Or, ultimately – it’s none of those things – God just wants to do a new thing…
At this point you may know: you can’t stick to the new, tying yourself to this wild old thing. Old wounds do not perceive new things. It’s time to let go…
This doesn’t mean that what was old no longer has beauty or that people are no longer lovely. I like them very much. It just means He wants to do something new.
“See, I’m doing something new!”
Now he arises; you don’t perceive it?
I make my way through the desert
and streams in the desert. (Isa. 43:19)
We may not always know what’s new, but He does. New steps often require a step of faith. It’s OK. All we need to know is that He knows. It is more important than knowing it to position oneself according to the wishes of HI.
I won’t say it’s easy. I won’t say it doesn’t hurt. Rejection hurts. But rejection is both God’s redirection and His compassion, so we don’t keep scraping our knees on that same old edge.
That said, my dear friends, I am adjusting the course and changing the direction of my sail, my friends. I am not a flatterer, a miser and needy poor man, a poor man begging for a scrap. No, I am a daughter of the King who does his will, big or small. And I surrender again and walk in His ways.
You can do the same thing too!
That doesn’t mean I don’t like them, because I do. It just means that God has more grace elsewhere. I’m moving to this place. I accept this reality. I come to peace with that. It’s difficult, but absolutely necessary.
What do you have to come to terms with?
» [What, what would have become of me] if I had not believed I saw the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!
Wait, hope and wait for the Lord; be courageous and of good courage and may your heart be strong and enduring. Yes, wait, hope and wait on the Lord. (Psalm 27:13-14)
Prayer: Father, help us to abandon the shores to which we are determined to cling, for only then, on your immense waters, will we sail. May your hand help us and may the winds meet us because we trust you completely. In the Name of Jesus. Amen.
Update:
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a determined faith
Kelly, a fun, active, and spunky mom to two rambunctious toddlers, spends her days pushing swings, changing diapers, and pursuing the Lord with all her heart. Called the “Cheerleader of Faith,” Kelly’s greatest desire is to help women live passionately, purposefully, and unhindered for the Lord.
