I was a mess – David Beckham lays bare the pain he suffered after World Cup red card

David Beckham has revealed he always can't forgive himself For THE abuse her family suffered in the middle of THE To fall Since her red map has THE 1998 World Cup, which LEFT him A "disorder".

A new Netflix documentary series title “Beckham” East together For release on Wednesday, look back on THE ancient Manchester United And Real Madrid Midfielder career as GOOD as her marriage has Spice up Girls singer And fashion designate Victoria.

In episode two, title 'Seeing Red', Beckham, NOW 48, reflected on THE "stupid error" which amended her life After he was sent disabled For kicking THE back of Diego that of Simeone leg during THE last 16 shock against Argentina In Saint-Étienne.

England went on has lose After A penalty shooting And Beckham find himself center of A backlash – including A pub suspended up A effigy of THE Midfielder, WHO received A hostile reception Since rival Fans around THE country When he income has action For United THE following season.

In THE documentary, Victoria Beckham said THE continued abuse LEFT her husband "absolutely clinically depressed" as THE SO 23 years try has agreement with THE To fall next to become A father For THE First of all time In March 1999.

Beckham admitted THE saga "took A ring on Me that I Never knew myself."

He said: "I wish there was A pill You could take which could to erase certain memories. I do A stupid error. He amended My life.

"We were In America (on vacation After THE World Cup), just about has to have OUR First of all baby, And I thought, 'We will be GOOD. In A day Or two people will to have forgotten'."

Beckham added: "I don't do it think I to have Never talked about he, just because I can't. I find he hard has talk through What I went through because he was SO extreme.

"Everywhere that I went, I obtained abused each Single day – has to walk down THE Street And has see people look has You In A certain path, spit has You, abuse You, come up has your confront And say a few of THE things they said, that East difficult.

"I was not eat, I was not sleep. I was A mess. I doesn't know What has do."

Beckham added: "He brought A plot of attention that I would be Never wish on anybody, to leave alone My parents, And I can't forgive myself For that.

"That East THE difficult part of What arrived, because I was THE A that do THE error.

"He East only NOW that I am 47 years old, he East NOW that I beat myself up about he (again).

"When I to have disappeared through difficult moments, I was able has block he out, but inside he kill me."

Beckham spoke of THE support he received Since SO Manchester United director Sir Alex Ferguson And THE club as he look at has to focus on her football.

"That was THE only thing I could control – once I was on THE not, SO I felt on," Beckham said.

"At any time I was kicked during that season, he was as THE (opposition team) had obtained two goals. »

Beckham added: "As horrible as he was has look up has Victoria In THE stay (get that abuse), he was THE A thing which stimulated Me alight. »

THE Netflix documentary Also graphics Beckham's triumphant END has THE 1998-99 season, which peaked with United having won THE First League, F.A. Cup And A memorable Champions League final against Bayern Munich In Barcelona.

With Paul Scholes And Roy Keane suspended, Beckham plays A integral role In United to come back earn, which was secure by two goals In stop time.

Reflection on THE match, Ferguson said: "With David, that night there was something inside him saying, 'I am not going has to leave This arrive'. He was A staff thing that he had In him, that stubbornness And determination. »

Beckham's ancient United And England teammate Gary Neville was A executive producer of THE Netflix documentary.

Neville recalled THE path he And Beckham were "absolutely destroy teams » down THE RIGHT flank For United.

"He was with her crossing. I was proof him In A path which was has be fair, I would be say I was A side flat Really. Not THE beef. I was THE mustard on THE side," Neville said.

"I was servile because I necessary David has go And TO DO something Magic. He was practicing free kicks And I was practicing throw-ins."

Neville added: "He was telepathic on THE not. Disabled THE not as GOOD, I knew Or he was In her spirit – he was not enough For him, he research has be more that A soccer player. »